The past couple days have been really hard. Life is wearing. The more stress I am under the more I feel the constant pressure of the discernment process. How can I know if this is really the best choice? My bank account was deeply impacted by my minor car accident...does that mean I should keep putting money out for this application? I might have gotten a ticket today, how will that change things? I start to doubt everything...
And then He speaks to me: through a book, through a friend, tonight it was through a song. Not a religious song at all. I was catching up on Glee episodes, trying to calm down from my commute home today. Two characters sang a duet from a song called Candles by Hey Monday. The song's message is not at all related to what I heard; only one line caught my attention: "Someday you will get back everything you gave Me."
He is why I am doing this. It is going to seem crazy to almost everyone. Sometimes it even seems crazy to me. I'm giving up six weeks, one semester. If things work out, maybe I'll be giving up more than that. But I'm gaining so much more. And on top of that, He tells me I'll get back everything I gave up for Him. So what do I have to lose?
Pax Christi!
You don't have anything to lose! You're just going to grow Sooooo much closer to His Heart! <3
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