I'm human. In case you didn't know. Right now I'm just realizing it. I'm trying so hard to get everything accomplished, to be everything. I'm going to Mass, I'm working out, I'm trying to get back in the habit of saying the rosary and praying through out the day. I'm taking a management role at work, studying constantly to keep my scholarships. Tonight I realized, it isn't worth it.
These things are all great. But trying to do everything and be everywhere is getting ridiculous. I'm so stressed out I'm no good to anyone, especially God. How can I reach out to others if my life has just become a list of things to do? I have no time to listen to a friend, try to be an example to coworkers, or just sit in the chapel.
As a chronic overachiever, I know that changing will be hard. So I'm going to try this for one week and see how it goes. I'm not going to go to the gym unless I happen to get to school early. I'm not waking up tomorrow early to get a jump start on homework. I'm not studying for my open book test. I'll read the chapters once and that is it. I'll try to get to mass, but if I don't I'll just spend a few minutes in the chapel. I'm going to try to reach out to the people I know are having a hard time, write the letters to people I haven't responded to. I'm going to spend less time checking things of my list and more time listening to what God wants me to do in each moment. And I'll trust Him with working out the details.
Pax Christi!
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