Today I woke up early. I went to Mass, worked out, read a inspirational book. I studied for my test until I was confident I knew the material. I attended classes and paid attention. I accomplished everything I intended to do at the start of the day. That's a great feeling to have.
As I started to write I was thinking, "God, what do I have to say besides thank you for a day like this?" But why do I feel the urge to thank Him more on the good days? I've seen in my own life the greater effects that come from adversity. I know they are blessings, perhaps even more so than the miracles we pray for. But that truth doesn't seem to sink in. How often do I thank God for His flawless plan on the days when I am tired and sore and miserable? I'm struggling to remember if I've even done it once.
Another train of thought was about my prayer life. I've heard it said that people come to church more in times of adversity. For me, I feel the opposite is true. It is easy to come to God when things are good. I can open my heart to Him, and just be at peace. But when things are going wrong, whether it be in my family or at work or just internally I shy away from prayer. It isn't easy. I don't want to see another perspective on the situation, or know how I could be better dealing with it, I don't even want to acknowledge it is there. And that means abandoning God. Today, since prayer comes easier I'm going to pray for the strength to continue my prayer life when times get hard again, whether it be tomorrow or next year.
Pax Christi!
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