The World in Black and White

Today was a miserable day. The sky was gray and the world is covered in the remainder of the last snow storm. The trees are coated with snow and ice. Everything looks different, the lines are clearer. I couldn't help but marvel on my commute to school how much more I notice about the landscape when the colors are gone.
Today at Mass, Father mentioned how the knowledge that we are drinking the blood of Christ, the blood of our hero, changes everything. It changes what we see, what we hear, how we look at the world. For me, the best way to represent this drastic difference is seeing the world in black and white. To see each thing stand out in a way it never has before. To see how it connects to everything else. To see the beauty and the simplicity.
I had a conversation with a friend about how to explain to non-Catholics about what I'm considering doing with my life. A few of my friends know (who aren't Catholic) but we really don't talk about it. I have others who I really don't want to mention it to, because I can't explain clearly why I'm doing this. She said it isn't something that you can explain, it is something you feel. It is a relationship, a love that is so strong you have to follow it. You are compelled to follow this path. There is no way to explain it.
She then went on to say how she felt sorry for those who don't have this relationship. How can you not have this passionate love lighting up your life?
I know what she is talking about, but I have to say I don't have that feeling now. I don't have the passion for Christ and the faith that I've had at other points. I believe it and love Him 100%, but it is different. I go to Mass as often as I can in a week, I pray, I'm trying to explore to figure out where I am called. I have to say, in some ways I like the place I'm in. Sure the passionate light that effects everything is great, but sometimes, it is nice to see things from a different view. My relationship with God is calm, intimate, like old friends talking on a summer afternoon.
So to whoever's reading this, I'm not sure that I made much sense. I had so many thoughts running through my mind today.

Pax Christi!